Walls {guest post}

Today Rachelle joins us with this heartfelt devotional, originally posted at Young Ladies Christian Fellowship.

My quiet time that day started out like any other. A quick prayer left my lips for God to bless my heart as I sought Him. I opened the Bible study book I was currently working through. And an eye-opening, heart-rending hour began.

Many times, I was tempted to close my Bible, say “Amen,” and leave. My heart was being probed to its deepest, darkest depths. I squirmed uncomfortably as the Word and Jesus’ gentle whisper proceeded to peel back layer after sticky layer from my soul.

Wounds I had thought were taken care of long ago resurfaced. Though I had thought those scars were healed, I had really only been ignoring them. Attitudes I wasn’t aware I possessed were revealed to be causing a rift in my growth as a child of God. It was an exhausting time. Near the end of the hour, I felt violated.

“Why is it that I feel this way?” I thought. “Why am I squirming as the Lord searches my heart? Is it because I am coming up short? What other outcome did I expect? Isn’t this what I want, for my pursuit of Jesus Christ to be free, unhindered of the baggage that is weighing me down?”

“Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting,” I prayed (Psalm 139:23-24).

How about you? Have you ever had the Lord whisper softly to your heart that all was not as it should be and you only shifted uncomfortably in your seat?

God was trying to pull down the walls around my heart that morning, but I was busy thwarting Him, erecting even higher ones. Afraid of being vulnerable before God, I had decided that I wasn’t going to let Him get too close. I didn’t think I could trust Him with my secrets. I didn’t want to trust Him to heal and free me from those walls because I thought I could handle things myself.

When I acknowledged that there were indeed walls around my heart and I needed Him to pull them down, at last, the walls fell.
I allowed God to free me from everything that stood between my heart and His. I surrendered my “I can fix this myself” attitude and let God lead me on the first steps towards healing.

Those were the first steps on a bumpy road, but it is a road of joy, because high walls no longer block the light of the Son. Won’t you join me on it?

~Miss Rachelle Rea~

Rachelle is a homeschoolee-turned-college-attendant, writer, and booklover whose online mission is to "inspire daring" in others' lives, as God does so in hers.  Other than reading and writing, she enjoys music, running, and sunshine - among other things.  You can visit her blog, Inspiring Daring, for more of her thoughts and work.


  1. wow! This is very stirring...and well written.

  2. I like the word pictures that she used.

  3. Hello ladies! Why don't you stop by her blog and tell Rachelle yourself? :) www.rachellerea.com

  4. Thank you, Marcia and Anna! I really appreciate ya'll's saying so! :)

    Also, thank you so much, Emily Rachelle, for having me! :)


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